Like a predator on a prey, it follows me around, almost catching up wit me, sometimes catching up with me.
it's a feeling that no matter how far i seem to run from, it keeps catching up with me, screaming in my face... you can run but you cant hide.. HA!!
Im puzzled, overwhelmed, intrigued, and most of all confused...
cus no matter how much i try to hide, i find myself enveloped in these cravings, feelings that i cant explain, figure out, just understand...
if only i can put a word to it, i'd feel so much better.
i feel so abnormal cus what i feel is far from normal,
it's spectacular, yet provoking. im not ashamed, yet im embarrassed.
im embarrassed that i seem to be the only one feeling these things.
im embarrassed that people will they me and probably ostracise as a pathetic, terrible and corrupt person.
yet im not ashamed, im not ashamed because when im filled with these feelings, i just let go and be me, the real me comes out and i feel nothing could ever get better.
then im forced to face the ugly truth in the real world.
im hunted by past pleasures and pains gotten from these feelings.
leave me alone i scream out, please leave me alone i beg like the hunted being chased by the hunter...
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